De Jager shared her transition story for the first time to more than 12 million YouTube subscribers. She thanked her mother for being her biggest supporter and said her makeup channel started as she was completing her transition.
She became well-known online for her “power of makeup” videos and has worked with celebrities like Jessie J and Lady Gaga, and has collaborated with brands like Too Faced to launch products.
“Growing up, I think the number one thing I’m the most thankful for is my mom, love you, mom, because she has been there for me since day one,” de Jager, who is a Dutch YouTuber based in the Netherlands, said.
She also said she had been blackmailed by people who wanted to leak her story to news outlets, and said she was coming out because the opportunity to do so on her own terms had been taken away from her.
De Jager said she knew she was a woman ever since she was a child, and that she had grown her hair out and started identifying as a girl by the age of six.
“Some kids got it and other kids in my class did not,” de Jager said. “But I will always be so thankful to all the teachers at that school who supported my journey and supported me.”
She went on to say that she started hormones by the time she was 14-years-old. de Jager says she used “growth stoppers” that prevented her from becoming taller. She added that she fully transitioned at age 19, having already started making YouTube videos.
de Jager also said she shared her transitioning story with her fiancé Dylan, and that the two were working through the situation privately – the couple has kept their relationship largely private and off social media.
“I am me. I am still Nikkie. Nothing changes about that,” de Jager said. “The last thing I want in my life is for you to not trust me anymore or for you to look at me with different eyes or for you to look at me in a different manner or think that I have changed […] D—, this feels liberating and freeing, but at the end of the day, I am still Nikkie.”